Saturday, June 23, 2007

Purpose

I have forgotten the purpose of all the things I do.

Like for this blog, I initially plan to put up a lot of beautiful male pictures. To appreciate the beauty of male body. But then I realize some of the pictures cannot be simply published here (seriously, do I have to?!). Else my blog will be deleted and all my efforts will be a waste.

Are they gonna delete this hot picture?!


And then I thought of writing something here instead. Like writing articles and stuff. I also thought of writing some random thought of being a gay man in Malaysia. Bla bla bla... as if I am gonna do it. I can have lots of plans. But I doubt I could achieve half of them. I hate to admit it, but I am. I am a good improviser. I always tell myself that (just to console my guilty soul).

So what is it gonna be? male pictures? articles with interesting topic? random thoughts?

I still don't know.

I find myself hard to concentrate, since few years back. And I also find it very difficult to get back my concentration or focus. Is it because of my work?! Aging?! I don't know.

Today, I don't know what is the purpose of living the day. I have done nothing productive. And I kind of hate tomorrow because I know I am gonna be very busy and tired, and tomorrow is Sunday. Somehow I know that I will be very productive because I am doing something more meaningful rather than sitting in the house all days watching tv only.

I don't know. I am kinda don't know what I really want. And I do not have the passion to live my current life. Lost my enthusiasm to do something I want to do. Or is it because I do not know what I really want? Damn, I think I do not know what I really want.

Gosh, I don't know what I want!


Pathetic freak!

Don't mind me! It's late and I'm gonna sleep. Hopefully tomorrow I will have something better to write about.

Peace.

3 comments:

Sam said...

I don't think you're not allowed to put the pictures up on this blog - after all, everyone's doing it. =P

But if it makes you feel safer though, you can always opt for a separate picture account - like Imageshack or something. Won't be much safer, but at least if Imageshack kicks you - you'd still have this blog. :)

Oh, and I don't think they kick you out if you don't post very graphic nude pictures la - so keep it above the navel, or if you can't resist - make sure that the picture is in no way exhibiting genitalia and stuff like that.

Queer Ranter said...

How about putting both pictures and articles. I don't see why not. :)

Janvier said...

A friend was mentioning to us as well about what he's thinking of doing in the future, and admonishes us for saying that we'll just float along and react to whatever will come by. He tells us, "Sit and plan."

Still, it's your blog so have fun with it, don't let it pressure you.