Saturday, June 25, 2011

Un(Forgive & Forget)

"Not you again?!"



I am actually surprised I can hate someone so much that every time I see this person I could feel the hatred within me so strong that I just want to get this person out of my sight, out of my mind. And being the Facebook addict, I can't help but always (unintentionally) see his face popping up here and there whenever he post something. Of course, I don't simply hate a person. He did hurt me before. Therefore I hate him. Why and how he hurt me? Well, there'll be another story.


Anyway, lately I also realized that not only did I hate him, I also kinda detest those who related to him or befriended him. Yes, I know that's very unfair to those people. And I know I am not supposed to be like that and I hate myself for being like that. But that's just the things I noticed about myself lately. I mean, he is such a badass. Why would anyone befriended him?! So I assumed that those who befriended him are either badasses as well, or, they haven't known his true colour. Oh I am such a mean, evil person, I know!



Sometime I tell myself maybe I should forgive him and forget what he did to me. Hahaha… I am laughing at myself for writing this sentence. I reckon even if time heals the pain, but the scars will still remain. He will always remind me of the scar which has been imprinted permanently in my heart. I might not feel the pain, nor hate him as much as the time goes by, but time can never erase the memory I have about him. Unless of course, I lost my memory or something like that.


As long as I remember, I am sorry to say, I cannot forgive, nor forget. I won't revenge, nor treated him badly. But don't expect me to be nice and friendly to this person. Oh, suddenly I feel like I am the badass!




4 comments:

rotiboy said...

You must be badly hurt by him. Anyway, if you don't want to see him in your Facebook, you can hide all post by him, or unfriend him entirely. =)

savante said...

Forgiving isn't easy. FOrgetting would come easier if you just block him on facebook.

Dr.Ramesh kumar said...

i accept with your emotion...they are quite natural human feelings....sometimes we can forgot our loved ones unnoticed...but its so difficult to forget those who have hurt us so badly...
time heals everything.
and moreover ''forgiveness is the best revenge'.

N!LoC said...

yes... mariah carey...h.a.t.e.u was my theme song for the guy who played me...

so precise....