Unfairness or Fate

Many things we can talk about how unfair the world can be. Why is one richer than another? Why is one better looking than another? Why is one smarter than another? And why being gay is not normal and being straight is normal? And the list can go on and on and on and on...

Why?!

It's funny I never remember about being treated unfairly when I was young. Perhaps my parents really made sure everything and everyone was treated equally. If my sibling got a chocolate, then I will have one too. If my parents were to buy toys, they surely bought a toy to each and every one of their children. No one will be left without one toy. Oh well, that's what most of the children care about when they were young. Play and eat and sleep. No complicated desires and needs.

Too bad when I grow, I got to see a lot of unfairness. And it hurts seriously. And I started questioning why and how come, this and that?! Some have reasons, some other just don't. Fate?! Or whatever. But to really be the victim of the unfairness, most of the time they can only sigh and move on with their life. Like victims in the war? What can they do? They can only suffer and pray that tomorrow will be better. Or people who suffer with poverty? They chose to be poor? Or is it because it is their fate?

Perhaps I am destined to be...

Of course about me being gay, I always think it is unfair how most (straight) people perceive and look at homosexuality. But I can't really blame them because they don't understand. So what can I do? Sigh, and move on with my life. Perhaps I have to consider myself lucky, that I actually being able to accept myself for who I am, instead of struggling to change myself to someone I am not.

And whenever I think about these unfairness, I feel sad, I feel disappointed, I feel angry and most of them time I will be over-whelmed with negative emotions that might be haunting me for days.

And I am having those negative feelings and emotions these days. Thanks to the update from my friend about that old cunning bitch! According to my friend, that bitch has resigned and her colleagues think that my friend is being the cruel and mean one who caused that old bitch to resign. As if my friend was the one who bully an elder? Obviously they do not know what had that old cunning bitch done to my friend, do they?! And yet they dare to judge. Isn't that unfair to my friend?

Sigh...

Talk about unfairness. I am speechless! And very much disturbed! And what can I do? Sigh, and move on...