However, reaching puberty and during the adolescent make things worse. That's when testosterone taking its effect to another higher level and drove me crazy. But instead of further looking into homosexuality, just like other young men back then, I thought I should focus on the opposite sex and impress them with all our might. Oh well, that's so high-school!
As I mentioned, I seriously do not know when and how I come to realize and admit that I am definitely a gay man. That will take another long journey back and remember every steps or incidents that might have caused me to realize "Oh yes, I am gay, indeed!". Seriously I can't say I am a proud gay. Living in this country, I just can't seem to be out and loud. Disheartening, yes it is. Oh well, ain't gonna go deep into that unfairness and bla bla bla depressing facts and all that blue-wy jazz.
However, I guess what I can do is to just promote this : " International Day Against Homophobia". I got to know this from Crazy Sam's Blog. And I guess we should all do something about it. Well, at least start from the thing which you can do, like posting a poster below.
Please visit : http://www.homophobiaday.org
Apparently May 17th 1991 is the day when the World Health Organization (WHO) removed homosexuality from its list of mental illnesses. Thank goodness, I am not classified as a crazy maniac now. You know, how I thought I was a crazy young man who only focus on the bulky horny man when watching porn. Oh well, those were the days. I guess surfing internet and know more about homosexuality does makes me feel better of myself as I know that I am not the only gay person and a lot more other people are experiencing the same situation as I do.
It's like achieving world peace. It takes time to create awareness and make things better. Let's put some efforts in promoting and work against homophobia starting from our community. It's not easy, I know. But you will never know a small little efforts by everyone can actually change the world.