Thursday, September 13, 2007

Inner Peace

总觉得生活再也不那么精彩了。曾经熟悉的繁华,仿佛离自己很遥远。如今生活的旋律,没有太多起伏不定,稳定的节奏,让我深切感受到那份平静、安心。感慨很多,激情很少,是看破红尘,还是怠惰了呢?好多好多的‘想要’,最后都变成了‘算了’。


I have been busy. With work, of course. And through these hectic days, I find myself pretty steady and calm. I needed to prepare a presentation, I need to entertain endless customers everyday, I need to solve system problems, I have lotsa program enhancement that need to be done for customer... the list can never end.

Yet, I find myself looking at all those overwhelming workloads, without much emotion. Numb? Maybe. I am quite surprise, frankly. Normally I would be so stressed up and prepare things in advance. But for the presentation, I actually waited and started to do the preparation one day before the presentation day. And I took my own sweet time to work on the problematic system and entertain my customers with jokes and humours.

In fact, I felt like I don't really care anymore. As long as I live, I will want to live the life I want to live. I have worried enough, suffered enough, felt enough pain and sorrow... And I don't really get over-excited too easily... And sometime I felt old. Or mature?

And suddenly, I kinda like myself. I like this feeling. It was like I am stronger now. Whatever things that may have come in my way, I can still smile and cast them all away... And I have the power and option to choose to be happy. Even though I am not overjoyed now, the peace I have within myself is good enough.

Yeah, the inner peace... I like that!

8 comments:

savante said...

Eee.. apa tu cakap cina?

coolgardy said...

U have the right to choose whether to be happy or sad...either way, u still have to live, so choose happiness! :)

HAIRYBEARS said...

BE COOL

HAVE A NICE DAY

HAIRYBEARS
http://hairybears.blogspot.com/

Koala Express said...

keep it up!

Jason said...

Take it easy.

Chester said...

I'm am half banana x faham semua.

Take it slow and steady. Dont push it.

Calvin said...

You're absolutely right and totally agree with you. If you take charge of your life and control how you feel, how you work, how you do every litte thing in life, you will feel at peace and calm.

I always remind myself that we only live ONCE in this life and there is NO second chance so we have to live the way we want but of course, with dignity and not doing illegal or silly stuff to harm ourselves.

William said...

OMG, you're in IT Hell too? Sigh...