I don't know

I don't know what to write. So don't bother reading. I don't feel like working anymore. I think I want to study because study have so much free time. Working is like doing stupid thing over and over again. And it seems that no matter how many problems I have solved, there will always be new one coming in. And doing it over and over again makes me sick! I feel like vomit!

What am I doing?!

But if I don't work, I don't know what else I can do. I think I should play piano. No, my skill is getting worse. Maybe I should go sing. No, my singing skill is still under that amateur category. I don't know what to do. So I better not do anything. See! I can't seem to find something that I really like to do. And watching movies doesn't help to fill the emptiness I feel inside. No matter how funny the movie may be, I laugh and then I forget why I laugh. If I watch sad movie, I cried and then I find myself stupid once I wiped away my tears.

What happened to me?!

I think I am wasting my time and my life. I could have done so many wonderful things in life. Yet, I don't know what I want to do. I am lazy. I am stupid. I am useless. Even sleeping in the bed is boring for me. Hell, I woke up 3am in the early morning wondering what should I do then. Fuck, even surfing on porn sites hardly give me any thrill! More or less like a zombie already.

After typing for a few paragraph, I still don't know what I want. And I do not know what I want. I don't know what to do. And I don't know what I should do next. I am fucked up. I think I still don't know what to do. I guess this is most probably be the stupidest post ever posted in my blog. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do.

Lost...

I don't know what to do...