"Excuse me! I don't normally do this but... can I buy you lunch? or dinner?"
That's the phrase I kept rehearsing in my mind when I saw him again this morning in the KTM commuter. And who is he? My crush - Mr. Heart Stealer. And yes, he fucking stole my heart.
My breath was taken away for a few seconds when I saw him standing in the commuter train. He turned around and saw me. I was fucking sure he remembers me. By the way he looked at me, I was so sure he knew my existence. I felt like standing there forever just enjoy the breath-taking sight. Unfortunately, I was being pushed further inside the train by the crowd and I found myself leaving him further and further.
And for the whole journey I was basically staring at him (except when he turned around and look at my side), and remembering how it was like when I once stood just right beside him in the train. Today, he was wearing very casually. Polo t-shirt and khakis pant. And a back-pack bag. I wonder he was going for a trip or just friday is a casual day for work.
We got off the train at KL Sentral. And I lost him in the crowd. Not sure if I would stumble upon him again in the near future and ask the question. Many 'what if-s' and 'maybe-s' starting popping up and ringing in my head.
Damned I missed him already... those arms, those buns, the lips, the eyes, the nose... Alright alright alright!!! Enough already! Thought I'd forget about him when time goes by, and he fucking showed up today to refresh the memories that we had. (Oops, maybe only the memories I have about watching over him from afar or my attempt to pursue my happiness!?)
No matter what, he is still my crush. Hmmm... I shall find some comforts in Dr Mani's arms now...