Every year this time always give me a sense of insecurities. Everybody was talking about what they have achieved, and what not... planning what is coming for new year etc. Not that I don't like it, but I somehow feel a little uneasy around the end of the year. Was it because I have achieved nothing? Or is it because I am afraid to face another new challenges in the coming new year?! A little bit of both, I guess.
Normally I would do a little reflection and new resolution for new year. Somehow I have learned through the year that it has become a routine instead of something I really wanted to do and striving hard to achieve. No doubt having targets or plans keep you moving , but sometime they just don't lead you to the right direction. Many things will happen along the journey in life and I guess we will just need to improvise a bit.
No big new year countdown celebration for me this year. I guess I'll just do what I do best. Be with some old friends, have a drink and claps our hands together when new year come and wishing each other happy new year. I sometime feel I started to get "not-so-energetic" anymore. I prefer peacefulness and quietness instead of being in the crowd screaming at each other.
Time comes and goes. Guess I'll have to get used to it.